Becoming Familiar

No longer do I feel like I'm living from one out-of-body experience to the next. I feel very much grounded now. My new life is more familiar, less puzzling.

Today, and tonight, I'm feeling serene. After staying up until 3:30am, I slept late, waking slightly after noon. I took my time getting ready. Straightened my hair, applied light makeup, wore my new True Religions (I might be crazy, but they seem like they're worth the money), and headed out to the mall.

I lazily strolled to each stop: Kiehl's for lip gloss; Aveda for shampoo/conditioner, and a complimentary hand massage; and finally, the Gap, where there was a 25% off summer dresses sale. I bought three dresses, each in a smaller size than I've ever worn, a pair of shorts, and a skirt. The dresses are remarkably beautiful. The colors, the design, the fabrics, and the flattering silhouettes. I'd look in the mirror after slipping each one on, shocked by how trim they were, and how good I looked in them. It felt amazing.

Afterwards, I drove back to my neighborhood with the convertible top down, good music playing from my iPod. Today was a sunny, breezy, perfect day. I stopped off at Starbucks for an iced coffee, and sat in a sunny spot on the patio, chatting with my mom, who seems upbeat. From there, I continued on my way, enjoying the warm sun moderated by the cool breeze. I felt at peace.

And tonight, I had two, great phone calls. One with m.g., my heart and soul. Another with t.m., someone who suddenly makes life fun again. I'm enjoying myself.

I can't wait to see what happens next.